So it’s ready, (early) this place that I’ve spent my lifesavings. Where I’ve also spent my energy, my frustration and everything else I’ve had until I’m nearly bankrupted from giving out so much. Its beautiful and such a shame I can’t post it here, and just scream out loudly that its all mine!!! But this being where it is, and this blog revealing more than I would tell any stranger, is stopping me. And so are the men in my life.
Men. J, of course, but the rest of them that have become my extended family. I’m sorry for not writing, and it isn’t that there isn’t a lot to say, there is so much to say, really, but its filtered by so much more. I don’t know how to be coy, vague, at least, not in the way this medium requires.
So J and I are doing great. I never would have thought even when I met him that there would be so much under the surface for him. He is one of those great men. One of those men you’d want to rule the world, but maybe thats just my stupid girlish fantasies (better until made real). If he ruled the world, he wouldn’t be bringing me roses, which I stupidly said at some point I didn’t like.
J is just one of those people who don’t ask for things, but you end up offering it up to them anyway. He doesn’t ask for anything really, but when you’ve hit the right note, or done something that surprises him pleasantly, the smile, the words that follow are my own personal high.
I love that stupid man, even when I’m rubbing his muscles from another encounter with S. Which will give S one of those ear to ear laughs, and give me a sore ass.
Angelique
You cute thing. i’m glad you’re doing well.
elise